"I'm FUCKING CRAZY.
I have so many things
wrong with me, Alan.
My brain does not work
like a normal human brain;
and if you had any sense,
you would not be charmed
by my eccentricities,
you would call a doctor.
I am FUCKING INSANE."

Talk about words that hurt-
Every word was like
a thrust with a knife.
Why am I killing the
good in my life?
Why do I want to destroy
this innocent blessing of a boy?